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Saturday, 23 October 2010

  • hello, square one. I'm back.

    its worse.  i duno what to say.  Ive got so much to say but cant say it.   im fucked.     what are you meant to do when you really need to speak to someone,   and theres nobody there?   The people that said they would be there,   aren't?         i dont know what to do.  i dont want to see anyone.  i dont want to speak.  i dont want to stay awake.  i dont want to move.      i  dont want to exist.

    mess, just... mess. 

Thursday, 19 August 2010

  • Things aren't getting better..

    Why did you just do that?
    Why did you go through with 2 weekends ago?
    Why do you keep trying?
    I was doing so well.     So bloody well.     What a mess.
    It's all my fault though, i know that.     Now i have to lie.   We have to.
    I'm pretending to look strong.    But i'm just as fucking weak as i was at the start.
    I'm so angry at me for this!
    This is gona turn into a big fight and i don't need that now, i can't fight.    Back away...
    Shit.

    Straight ahead, headfuck.

Friday, 06 August 2010

  • The lies will never stop.

    First time in a month.
    I couldn't look.   Tears were so close to falling.  
    wtf.
    Honestly, get a grip.   Pathetic.
    And you?  I know sorrys to late.  Yes, yes it bloody well is.
    Friends again?  NO i don't think so if your still going with her, you will not speak to me like we're fucking friends.
    I'm over it.  I'm bloody over it all.    I have to be if i want to carry on.

    Lies, go back to where you came from.

Thursday, 29 July 2010

  • Just stop all this

    You hurt me.  You hurt me real fucking bad.   Its been a month. With no sign of an apology.   yeah there is no chance im forgiving you this time, no way.   you would just do this all over again.  Like all the last times.  I believe nothing that comes out your mouth anymore, nothing!     people like you, i don't understand it.  You don't think at all.  Don't think how you effect other people.   you don't fucking care.   Only thing that matters is that you get what you want.
    I under estimated the lengths people go to get what they want...
    I wont have spoken to you for a month, it will probably turn into 5 weeks.    I don't even know how to react when i next see you; when you next try to speak to me.   If that ever happens.
    Im not looking forward to that day.

    Earth; just stop spinning, for a while.

Friday, 23 July 2010

  • I can do this... (?)

    I'm okay.
    I'm making it through.      My bad moments are getting in the way,     but i will get through.
    It will be a month.      I'm questioning if it will be harder or easier once it finally happens.
    I'm gona bet I will slip back.
    I can only take so much shit before i finally walk away, right?    And the line was crossed.      Completely crossed.
    It wasn't, never has been and still isn't fair on me the way he goes about treating me.
    Right now though, I'm fine.      For now.
    Stay clear of it, and im making it easier on myself.
    I can... do this....

    Slowly but surely, You're getting further

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